Day 74 of Training for Ironman Cozumel 2013

October 19, 2013, 11:07am
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Well I’ve been sitting here, on my butt, elevating my leg and have watched by now more hours of tv than I care to reveal.
I’m following the Dr.’s orders of no working out and have taken it to quite another level of doing jack crap. Yes, all I’ve been doing for 2 days is sleeping, playing my game on my ipad, reading, watching tv and eating. Honestly, I’m rather enjoying doing nothing.
It is crazy to think that there is such a stigma to doing nothing. That somehow we have to always be busy, producing DOING something or else we will be labeled as lazy, unproductive, unsuccessful. I do feel guilty when I’m doing nothing, I just have that nagging feeling that I should be doing. All of the great teachers of life, and I’m talking spiritual teachers, say that being is much more important than doing. That sitting, meditating, contemplating allows us to become more aware of the present moment, when we aren’t worrying about the future or regretting things we did or didn’t do in the past. Just being. In just being, I believe we can be more appreciative of what we have, be grateful for all of our gifts, be aware that this is all we have, this very moment.

 

Sounds deep I know, but I’m realizing that I have been so busy doing, worrying about my business, my training, that I haven’t spent any time on my own spiritual growth, awareness. Whether I’m channeling Deepok or just having an existential moment, all of a sudden I am okay with just sitting here, resting, doing nothing. (however I’m certain that at any moment my tv is going to catch on fire as it has been on for so long).
So I begin to think that the universe thought I needed a break, a rest from life, an excuse to do nothing. Maybe so. My dear friend Kim is quite spiritual and always reminds my that all is the way it is supposed to be. Shelley too, said, just believe that you are where you are supposed to be. So, here on the couch, while my friends are out riding for 5 hours getting fitter and stronger for Ironman, I’m resting and being.
Later…

Just had dinner with a long time friend Patricia. We were in grad school together and she has a fabulous job that has here traveling 12-18 days a month. She is now living in North Carolina now with her partner. We chill at Town, fabulous food by the way, and share stories as we haven’t seen each other in 5 years. At the end of the night we both agree that it is the people in our lives, the relationships that we have forged, that are what is important. I bid Patricia good night and hope that it isn’t another 5 years. My experience of just being this weekend is going well so far and I’m feeling grateful and look forward to sleeping in again tomorrow.